“Because you’re strong.” -Gem

December 6,2011
@ around 4 pm

Minsan parang gusto ko nalang sumuko. Escape ko nalang ay sleep. Nasasaktan ako. Hindi na positive ang outlook ko sa buhay. It’s never enough. Gusto kong sabihin sa sarili ko na I don’t have the biggest problem in the world and that I should still smile beyond (?) all this, but I can’t just shrug this all off. This is reality slapping me hard on the face. Ang sakit sakit. Many times I’ve thought of telling this to (secret) but….

Sometimes it gets too heavy for me, the load that I carry on my shoulders. Sometimes I tell myself that God has a plan, He always has. But no. Hindi ko na kayang takasan? I have a whole family, very supportive relatives, I have the best friends, I have God, I can still take entrance exams on diff. schools, I have an Internet connection, I still get to eat at fancy restaurants. Pero minsan, life just consumes me.

Sure, things don’t always go your (my) way, but is this too much?

*1/4 lang to ng sinulat ko pero gusto ko lang i-share. I’m sorry if you’re drama-intolerant. Minsan lang.